FML!

i feel today isnt my good day. this morning i was sick then bad things keep come to me. i also in a bad mood today. well,i dont know whats going on but lately i feel like i'm so sad and stuff. i feel like i'm losing all my hopes. i really want my old life back,if i have time machine. but we know that we cant go back,life goes on and we have to face the future. i have mix feeling and i'm being so senstive this lately,i hold all my feelings in me,i dont know who i can talk this problem with.. no one seems to understand. sometimes i think about cutting myself but i know that isnt solve the problem i have. god please help me. i dont think i can keep this any longer,i feel like i want to explode it all. what should i do? :(